Come to think of it, we’re still not Facebook friends. You started with adding one of our common friends. Later, you add the rest on one sign-in. You left me out. We were all tagged in the same FB post; you added everyone but me. It hurt seeing that notification in my news feed. As much as I want to add you, to at least feel that somehow, I belong to your world, I just could not push myself to go that further. I made myself look pathetic in front of you so many times before. It’s just not acceptable to do it again now. More than that, I wonder why you left me out. From what I recall, we parted ways in good terms. We met again a year after that (only very awkward this time, thanks to my fail “I-have-completely-gotten-over-you” acting). Is it because of something I did? Something I said? Or something you implied from my actions? Whatever it is, I am really curious to know because I believe that you’re not that petty to simply leave me out. No. You’re much better than that.
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And today, I’m officially missing you.
It’s been what, 2-3 years since we’ve last met? And yet here I am still thinking back on those memories I’ve shared with you. It’s crazy, I know. It’s not like we had a relationship or something for me to still cling on to you. We were just friends. At least “close” friends at that. I had hoped and wished that we were more than that but no, we’re just not possible.
I have always thought that you were the closest thing I’ve got when it comes to love. I have always considered you my first love. But I go back and forth with this idea. Our story, or rather my “first love” story just pales when compared to the the “first love” stories of my friends. First of all, it was unrequited. It never came to fruition, yes, it never came to anything. Second, our sweet moments can be mistaken for simple, friendly moments. There’s nothing quite remarkable to brag about, well, from the point-of-view of third parties. (Try asking me and every single moment just transforms into something worth sharing.)
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Memories <3
Can’t get enough of our Taengoooo! :) Already ALL-KILL on music charts!
